That is it. That is the key to all there is; was and ever
will be. Accept it and living automatically becomes simple. Most of my life was
spent thinking, ‘it will get better’, ‘things will change’, and every other
form of placebo I was willing to give myself and be happy.
No one really told me that making life easy is not just
difficult, it is impossible. Life gets tougher with each moment that passes.
Just like a game, the next level is tougher, you plough on, you get through and
another level is right there waiting for you.
So yes, the money is never going to be enough, the friends
won’t ever be as cool as you want them to be, your mother will never understand
you. Your great idea will get rejected again and again; the diligent budgeting will
eventually die a terrible death when an emergency or a want takes precedence. There
will be those who seem to have everything and others who seem forever lost. I feel
both and at times I feel both at the same instant. But that is just me, just
who I am, unique just like everyone else suffering the human condition.
Today my eyes were stuck open, today I believe I see a
little more clearly. I see that none of this, nothing at all matters. If I can
go to sleep smiling and wake up with the strength to fight on, I am more
successful that most people I know. The bank balance can be made, the clothes
can be bought, the body can be sculpted provided I really want to. However,
want alone does nothing. Positive thinking only keeps one positive. Living like
there is no tomorrow and acceptance of all there is at least gives a realistic
view of what is.
This view for me today is that life is difficult. I accept it.
